I wanna be next.

I love hearing about BFP's. It makes me happy. I just want it to be my own BFP. I know that kinda goes without saying when ttc, but I feel better "saying" it. So. There it is. Whoop.

I'm a psycho.

Confession: I have this completely unfounded, completely paralyzing fear that I'm going to have trouble getting pregnant. No basis, no history of anything that would remotely hint at that, just me in all my craziness. It's starting to become a problem. I need a 12 step program for chart obsession.

I'm not pregnant

So, now I am officially "that girl". On to the next cycle. Actually ,I'm already there. In fact, I am hopefully about to O. Yes, that's right. It has taken me a good 2 weeks to admit to myself, on my own blog, that probably no one in the universe will ever read, that I am...that girl.
I'll probably be "that girl" until I'm really pregnant. Although I agree to try. To try not to obsess over every little thing this month. In my defense, I totally had what looked to be the beginnings of a triphasic chart. And what could have been a beautiful implantaion dip. Of course, I know that neither of these things necessarily means a damn thing. Especially when these things are not truly these things. So, here's to being slightly less "that girl".
Oh, I also am trying Robitussin this cycle. Well, Mucinex. I can't stand liquid meds. Anyway, I'm a little scant in the CM dept. This is suppose to help with that. We shall see.

I have a secret

I think I'm pregnant. I'm scared to say it outloud. Scared of being "that girl". Scared of being wrong. But let's just say it won't surprise me if it's true. Of course, I realize that I have nothing to base that upon. I mean, my chart looks good, but that could change at any moment. Don't have any batshit crazy phantom symptoms...just a feeling. That may turn out to be based soley upon hope. I get that. But I just had to say it. Somewhere. Somehow. If for no other reason than if it turns out to be true - it shall be on record. And if I'm wrong. I can delete this.